Lipstick Cover-Up

but I haven't found the time to work on the new look bloggy...I'm actually hoping my sister BG will have a hand in helping with it's creative side. I'm not so much on the creative front.

Any ideas from the blogosphere?

I have tickets to a concert, Alannis Morrisette, 12 of them, in the front and center and there's this great pre-concert party, food, drink, entertainment, and it's all FREE, you read it right folks, FREE!!! I get to have a little party all for me and 11 of my friends, and I have 3 people who've taken me up on it and 2 are maybe's...the third just wants to have sex with me and I'm NOT in any way into him AT ALL...and I'm MARRIED and not into that CHEATING thing AT ALL....and I didn't invite him directly, he wasn't even supposed to know about it but a common friend got all blabby not remembering his come on's to me and now he's taken a ticket!!!!!

So if anyone is going to be in Virginia next month, let me know I'll send you all the details and you can come and meet the artist with me at the pre-party....I know you all aren't really coming, that's ok, but how pathetic that I have this and can't find enough FRIENDS to go with me....

Which leads to my final point, which I wasn't intending to talk about here but oh well....I don't really like maintaining friendships...I'm not good at the keeping up of it, the attention these relationships so often require I'm either incapable of or just not willing to give. I've been this way for so many years, since 8th grade in fact, so over 20 years....when my oldest sister was killed in a car wreck I just stopped wanting to be very close with people. I have friends, I have my sisters, they've always been my best friends, since we were kids, I'm closer to them than anyone. I have my husband. My kids. But friends, just a few and that's ok with me, I'm alright with that. I'm friendly, many can attest to that, very friendly, but i don't like making deep meaningful connections much. I call it "superficial friends" we talk about stuff, but if we don't see eachother or chat often, that's ok, no pressure to hang out or stay connected. That sounds terrible.

I discovered this recently with my shrinky, I just blurted it out a few weeks ago when she was asking me about my "friends" and just kept asking shit..." I don't like maintaining friendships!" It was a revelation for me honestly at that time, and since then I've thought a lot about it. I've let a lot of people down due to this characteristic. I'd say I'll try and do better, but I don't know if I will. Believe me I don't think I'm all that, or that folks are lining up to be my buddy, I know they are not...but I've gotten close to people before only to pull away due to no fault of theirs...and I do feel badly about that. They invest the time and I try and then I stop.

Regardless, it's good to know. And for what it's worth, if there are any fellow "superficial friendly" folks out there who want to come to a free night of fun at the concert let me know:)

Lastly, does anyone know how to set up a "donate" button? I'd like to set one up for Sam at Rainbows and Unicorns, (her link is to the right on this blog)...I'd like her to get those J.Crew jeans she fancies for back to school without having to cut into her and her sister's living money.

I was thinking a gift card for her, but I can't just plunk down $100 bucks of my own all at once, I've got 3 kids people and I'm the only working parent, HELLO!!

So a donate button for Sam was what I was thinking, I don't know if she wants it, but I know she wants the jeans:)

Lots of love,
lil'sis

floating around in my head.

Lots.

What to say here,

- kids are back to school, the Frenzy ensues
- we got a puppy, she's so darn cute, a peekapoo, yes a "designer mutt" as I lovingly call her, her name is BooBoo...when she walked into the house she peed, my youngest (2 1/2) says, "Momma, puppy BOOBOO on da rug" Boo Boo just stuck, wasn't what we thought to name her but it stuck. and yes she's had many a booboo on the floors since, but nothing we can't handle and she's actually doing pretty good at training.
- my baby, Beanzie we call her, not so much on her potty training though, a work in progress.
- I'm going to move my blog, rename it, redesign it (I hope) and feel like I can be more honest on it going forward, not sure when the stars will align for it to happen, but fingers crossed sooner than later.
- Snickollet is in the dating pool, her blogging on it is so funny
- Sam at rainbows and unicorns needs some hard hugs, she's a good bean that one, with a lot on her plate, send her some good thoughts if you get a chance.
- I'm running a road race this weekend and I'm not ready, SO NOT READY, at least that is the message the quadracepts in my legs are sending my brain each and every second since my longish run this past weekend, ugh.
- My sisters are funny
- Haggis makes me want to puke, just the thought of it, why oh why DEAR GOD is there still HAGGIS and folks who want to try cooking it...IN A FREAKING CROCKPOT! Say it will stop soon, I'm calling OSHA there must be regulations about ordering a "pluck" and all the other innards that accompany it in the inedible package!
- My friend has a new job and she gets to travel a lot, semi-annual trips to SCOTLAND AND COSTA RICA are a few of the perks, but lots of other shorter trips. She is not married with kids "yet" but there is a sizable piece of me that is filled with envy, i know it's a sin right.
- My mother shopped for my kids, not just the girls which is usually how it goes, but for my SON AS WELL. I felt very spoiled and the kids were happy to have grandma for a short time thinking of just them:)

- late bills, late nights doing laundry, early days at work....nothing too exciting but I'm finding my silver linings where i can, like last night I got home LATE with my oldest, Loud Girl and my son Green Bean from his football practice, dinner was ready for us thank you husband and Beanzie was washed and ready for bed....she crawled up into my lap as we ate like coneheads at the table and put her head on my shoulder, smelling all freshly washed and yummy and says "i lub you so much momma - you wan to seep wif me tonight?" She's a keeper thanks Beanz for making my day all worth it!

Lots of love,
lil'sis

I read a post today, indeed I've been keeping on on all the blogs I always read, but I haven't blogged in oh so very long...well this post I read over at OTR Girl's site, http://sojournering.blogspot.com/, (sorry I don't know how to do the linky thing correctly) directed you to several blogs that she likes to read. I was captured by one in particular, http://samsrainbowsandunicorns.blogspot.com/.... go check it out if you get a moment. Sam is quite a young woman, doing all she can to persevere in much less than ideal circumstances. She writes with a wisdom beyond her years gained from the time she's had to be the head of the house and parent to her younger sisters. Many of her posts as well show that she is a teenager, with teenager worries, the balancing act she is performing is inspirational, beautiful, scary and overwhelming all at once.

Kudos to you Sam and thanks for making me want to blog again.

Lots of Love,
Lil'sis