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I haven't posted in weeks! Geesh, it feels like days, but the reality is weeks I guess.

So hubby did go to the hospital, a nice short visit. They don't really know what is wrong with him, one ventricle is not working as it should, but it's working. They think it could be a toxic reaction to one of the meds they started, so he's off of that, and on a different one, but could take 6 weeks or so to get it out of his system fully (damn I wish advil worked that long, it would save me so much money!) and then we'll see if the heart issue goes away. He's still not moving fluid well, but his kidneys and liver both look good. They'd like to send him to this new specialist for his lungs, still waiting to hear about that.

In the interim, no one has reoccurred with the flu. One bout of stomach bug with the baby, Loud Girl and Green Bean have been fine, emotionally taxed I'm sure, but good kids. Little Bean just seems to catch all the colds or bugs that fly around. I think it's b/c she doesn't go to any type of daycare on a regular basis, a sitter now and then, but that's really it. Don't get me wrong, I love that she's home for the most part with Daddy, but when our older kids were this age they were in daycare and they built up that immunity...tradeoffs, she's a tough cookie, and oh so very happy. She's got her 2 top teeth coming in this week finally and she's been a bit cranky. She has her 2 bottom, so this will make 4, she's 16 months old this month. I know, not a lot of teeth, but Green Bean was just getting his FIRST tooth at this age, late teeth bloomer, Loud Girl had a mouth full by this age.

Speaking of teeth, Green Bean, who is now officially "7 and a half" just lost his first tooth this week, again late bloomer for that but the dentist said it's fine. Two nights ago he comes in to the nursery while I'm getting the baby to bed, "Momma, that bottom tooth is wiggly now, really wiggly, I'm going to try and pull it a little" he was so excited, I just nodded ok, he walks out only to walk back in 30 seconds later, "MOMMA, IT'S OUT, IT'S OUT, I HAVE FINALLY LOST A TOOTH!!!!" He was so proud. Adorable, he had to plan how to put it in the little box under his pillow, he wrote a note to the tooth fairy too, (yes, my children believe and for now that's ok with me) it said. "Dear Toothfairy, Here's my first tooth that I lost, FINALLY. I'd really like to keep it, but if you could leave me something too that would be great. Nice to finally meet you! Love, Green Bean"

She did come and left him $2 in quarters, he was thrilled, and the tooth was still there in the little box, only it was split perfectly in half, front and back halves, I'd never seen that before, GB said the fairy must have done it to prove to him she was there, her little bit of magic I guess.

I have found a counselor for me, I like her so far, only been once. It's a nice venue really, paying someone to let you gab for an hour, no interruptions. I never thought I had a lot going on, I'm somewhat over committed to be sure, but I like that. I have a hard time saying no if someone asks for help, but don't we all. Who knows I may just learn something about myself that I didn't know yet.

All in all, I think my husband is doing ok...I worry about him, but we have to keep on living, moving forward, etc. I want him to be well so badly, to feel comfortable and able to do all the things we enjoy doing together as a family and a couple. The frustration of it all is the hardest part, doable but frustrating. I feel like I'm not very good at it, I don't really want to get good at managing it all, I'd like for him to feel better and have our life back to what we consider normal. That's just a lot to ask right now, but one can always hope:)

On my WW I'm still doing well, still losing, getting closer to the goal, slow and steady.

I ran my first 8k this past weekend, it was good, tiring, wonderful, I felt accomplished when I finished in under the time I had set for myself. With my post respiratory flu lungs, I wanted to cough one up on the sidewalk when I was done, but hey, you can get by on one lung right.

So the next running event for me is the 10-miler at the end of March, I'm not thinking it's going to be a great success, but I'm back to training now, so with a little luck I won't drop to the ground at mile 8 and maybe I'll actually finish?

I have lots of things I want to post about, just need to find the time, which lately is scarce....motherhood is a biggie lately or always really, family dynamics (I probably won't post on this, b/c I feel like it's not the safest venue any longer to do so) Relay for Life, it's moving along, more work being the lead on it than I thought, the kids want a pet, we're still working to get the house ready to put on the market and I don't know if we should at this point, fitness, food issues, discipline, money management...I'll tell my sisters about things that happen during a given day at work or with the kids, and they'll say, "oh, lil'sis that is so bloggable" but I never remember to do it....the list goes on and on right. I'll get to it someday.

I've been thinking of shutting down this blog for a variety of reasons, I don't know yet. I do love writing on it, but when I just can't find the time it gets added to the list of things I'm not doing a good job on and I need to work on making that list shorter, either by keeping up with it or by cutting it out until the rest of life falls into place better, but does that ever truly happen? For now I think it'll just not be as frequent, but I do love reading so very many of you that I've met here in blog land and I'll continue to do that.

We're taking a trip for spring break to Disney World with the kids. First time on a plane for the children, first real travel for the baby, if anyone has flying tips pass them along PLEASE. It's a short flight, only an hour and a half or so, non-stop, so hopefully not too terrible. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they each remain healthy for the trip. Also, any Disney tips are welcome too, we've taken them plenty of places, but nothing this commercial is I guess the word I'm looking for. I don't know how many "educational moments" I'm going to encounter, I guess the history of Disney and Epcot will offer a lot, but this is purely about all out fun, I'm sure we'll encounter many examples of capitalism at it's worst, I'm hoping for the best in all aspects of the trip. I think we'll have a ton of fun if I can just remember to do that and not over analyze or plan too much. I think I can, I think I can....

All the best to each of you!